I have been MIA from the blog because of a few reasons. I was in Louisiana for the holidays. Lately it has been because I have nothing to write about. I have nothing to write about because I have been depressed. I haven’t been doing anything with my life. I haven’t been seizing the day. Carpe Diem should be my motto when I am living in France, but technically that is Latin. Saisis le Jour! I think I have gotten out of my funk, whatever it was. Thanks to a visit from my cousin I started to get out of it. He gave me a pep talk that he didn’t even know I needed at the time.
This has made me think about perception. Every time you look at someone’s social media, all you see are the happy photos. Travel pictures or photos with family. Everything is great in their life. Congratulations you are engaged, pregnant, or married. In my case I am living in Paris and traveling around Europe. But, There are never things that you can relate to if you are going through something horrible.
I am feeling better now after a couple of weeks. However, I used to be severely depressed. That is how I gained over 150lbs without realizing what I was doing to myself. When I felt that way I would see everyone else’s lives from the outside. I would think- They have it so good. Their life is perfect. Well I’m here to tell you it’s not.
This girl who is living and traveling in Europe loves her job and sometimes hates it. I want to go home some days and sometimes I think I want to stay another year. That couple that you think has the perfect relationship probably fight a ton in private. Those people who just announced they are having a baby may have had trouble conceiving. Trust me, everyone has something.
I just want to say that you can handle it. Whatever it is that is going on now, or the next thing that comes your way. I don’t know how I got to where I am today. Family, friends, and Therapy. Seriously, It was a long road. The people around me are amazing.
Talking with people you love is the best thing to do. And the best advice I have ever gotten is so simple. Depression is in the Past and Anxiety is in the Future. You cannot change the past, or control the future. So, basically we just need to Saisis le Jour!
Lots of Love(beaucoup d’amour),